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Thursday, May 30, 2013

I Believe

I believe life is fluid.
I believe there is purpose.
I believe in a higher power.
I believe in love.
I believe we choose our lessons.
I believe.
Even if I don't always understand.
 
 

"I Believe"
Every now and then
Soft as breath upon my skin
I feel you, come back again
And it's like, you haven't been

Gone a moment from my side
Like the tears were never cried
Like the hands of time
Were pulling you, and me

And with all my heart, I'm sure
We're closer than we ever were
I don't have to hear or see
I've got all the proof I need

There are more than angels watching
Over me.. I believe.. ohh, I believe.

Now when you die, your life goes on
It doesn't end here, when you're gone
Every soul is filled with light
It never ends, if I'm right

Our love can even reach, across-
Eternity.. I believe.. ohh, I believe.

Forever, you're a part of me
Forever, in the heart of me
I will hold you even longer
If I can..

Oh, the ppl who don't see the most
See that I, believe in ghosts
If that makes me crazy, then I am
Cuz I believe.. ohh, I believe..

There are more than angels watching
Over me.. I believe.. ohh, I believe.

Every now and then
Soft as breath upon my skin
I feel you, come back again..
And I believe..

Tuesday, May 28, 2013

I Hope You Dance

Over the weekend, a childhood "mom" of mine died. I met her daughter in the 6th grade and we became fast friends. Do I have to explain the significance of the relationship? I'm betting you know exactly what I'm talking about.
The deaths this year are adding up too quickly. I hope you remember to dance. And sing. And smile. And love.





"I Hope You Dance"

I hope you never lose your sense of wonder,
You get your fill to eat but always keep that hunger,
May you never take one single breath for granted,
GOD forbid love ever leave you empty handed,
I hope you still feel small when you stand beside the ocean,
Whenever one door closes I hope one more opens,
Promise me that you'll give faith a fighting chance,
And when you get the choice to sit it out or dance.

I hope you dance....I hope you dance.

I hope you never fear those mountains in the distance,
Never settle for the path of least resistance
Livin' might mean takin' chances but they're worth takin',
Lovin' might be a mistake but it's worth makin',
Don't let some hell bent heart leave you bitter,
When you come close to sellin' out reconsider,
Give the heavens above more than just a passing glance,
And when you get the choice to sit it out or dance.

I hope you dance....I hope you dance.
I hope you dance....I hope you dance.
(Time is a wheel in constant motion always rolling us along,
Tell me who wants to look back on their years and wonder where those years have gone.)

I hope you still feel small when you stand beside the ocean,
Whenever one door closes I hope one more opens,
Promise me that you'll give faith a fighting chance,
And when you get the choice to sit it out or dance.

Dance....I hope you dance.
I hope you dance....I hope you dance.
I hope you dance....I hope you dance..
(Time is a wheel in constant motion always rolling us along
Tell me who wants to look back on their years and wonder where those years have gone)

Monday, May 27, 2013

American Soldier

May the true meaning of Memorial Day resonate within you.


"American Soldier"

I'm just trying to be a father,
Raise a daughter and a son,
Be a lover to their mother,
Everything to everyone.
Up and at 'em bright and early,
I'm all business in my suit,
Yeah, I'm dressed for success from my head down to my boots,
I don't do it for money, there's still bills that I can't pay,
I don't do it for the glory, I just do it anyway,
Providing for our future's my responsibility,
Yeah I'm real good under pressure, being all that I can be,
And I can't call in sick on Mondays when the weekends been to strong,
I just work straight through the holidays,
And sometimes all night long.
You can bet that I stand ready when the wolf growls at the door,
Hey, I'm solid, hey I'm steady, hey I'm true down to the core,
And I will always do my duty, no matter what the price,
I've counted up the cost, I know the sacrifice,
Oh, and I don't want to die for you,
But if dying's asked of me,
I'll bear that cross with an honor,
'Cause freedom don't come free.
I'm an American soldier, an American,
Beside my brothers and my sisters I will proudly take a stand,
When liberty's in jeopardy I will always do what's right,
I'm out here on the front lines, so sleep in peace tonight.
American soldier, I'm an American,
An American,
An American Soldier

Saturday, May 25, 2013

With These Two Hands

We're all capable of tearing things down and ripping them apart: with our hands, with our words.
Sometimes my silence speaks as a way to prevent myself from ripping things apart.
I wish others would be more mindful of that on occasion.





"With These Two Hands"

I could roll the dice
And give you ten good reasons
I could break the ice
And pick up the broken pieces

I could wave hello, I could raise a glass,
I could blow a kiss, I could kick your ass
We could take it all apart or hold it all together

With these two hands I can tear down walls
I can build a bridge, I can break my fall
With these two hands I can pray or fight
I can hold the torch, I can shine a light
With these two hands

I could strike a match that sets the world on fire
Hold a grain of sand till it turns into a diamond

I could plant the seed, I could flip that switch,
Make the sign of peace, I could make a fist
Oh, we could make this hurt or we could make it better

With these two hands I can tear down walls,
I can build a bridge, I can break my fall
With these two hands I can pray or fight
I can hold the torch, I can shine a light
With these two hands

Wipe the teardrops from your eyes
Reach up until we touch the sky
Free to dream and make it true
No, there ain't nothing we can't do
Oh, there ain't nothing we can't do

With these two hands I can tear down walls
I can build a bridge, I can break my fall
With these two hands I can pray or fight
I can hold the torch, I can shine a light
With these two hands

Wipe the teardrops from your eyes
Reach up until we touch the sky
Free to dream and make it true
No, there ain't nothing we can't do
Oh, there ain't nothing we can't do.

Friday, May 24, 2013

Walk On

I once had a psychic look at me and say "you're the strongest person I've ever met. Everything you've been through would crumble most people." I get stuck sometimes, looking for the "why." Then I remember everything I've taught myself and walk on.



"Walk On"

Oh ain't life wonderful
When everything is right
But sometimes wonderful
Can fall apart sometimes
When your troubles knock you down
Pick yourself up off the ground and

Walk on
Walk on
Nothing ever stays wrong that long
Walk on
Oh walk on
Don't just stand there in the storm
Walk toward the light till you find the sun
And you'll be better off in the long run
And walk on

Oh it's a heartache when love comes to an end
But even though your heart breaks
You know it's gonna mend
Keep the faith right through goodbye
And don't you ever break your stride

Walk on
Walk on
Nothing ever stays wrong that long
Walk on
Oh walk on
Don't just stand there in the storm
Walk toward the light till you find the sun
And you'll be better off in the long run
And walk on

Walk on
Walk on
Nothing ever stays wrong that long
Walk on
Oh walk on
Don't just stand there in the storm
Walk toward the light till you find the sun
And you'll be better off in the long run
And walk on

Walk on
Walk on
Ohhh walk on
Walk on
Oh walk on

Wednesday, May 22, 2013

Welcome to Wherever You Are

A friend posted a nice sentiment on my Facebook wall which included the phrase "keep the faith" in it. I didn't want to do a repeat of that song so soon since I repeated Bounce yesterday.
Now that the initial shock is over, I'm trucking forward.
It might take some time for me to adjust to this one.
Maybe I never will.
Ironically, the First Agreement in Toltec Wisdom comes to mind: Be Impeccable with Your Word. I'm going to add to that: sometimes, even when you think you're being impeccable with your word, the context and concept can be stripped away, giving your words a very different meaning. Sometimes the person you're speaking of is in a place that assumes the worst.
When that happens, you can lose lifelong friends.
Love and Light.
 
 

"Welcome To Wherever You Are"
Maybe we're different, but we're still the same
We all got the blood of Eden, running through our veins
I know sometimes it's hard for you to see
You come between just who you are and who you wanna be

If you feel alone, and lost and need a friend
Remember every new beginning, is some beginning's end

Welcome to wherever you are
This is your life, you made it this far
Welcome, you gotta believe
That right here right now, you're exactly where you're supposed to be
Welcome, to wherever you are

When everybody's in, and you're left out
And you feel your drowning, in a shadow of a doubt
Everyone's a miracle in their own way
Just listen to yourself, not what other people say

When it seems you're lost, alone and feeling down
Remember everybody's different
Just take a look around

Welcome to wherever you are
This is your life, you made it this far
Welcome, you gotta believe
That right here right now, you're exactly where you're supposed to be
Welcome, to wherever you are

Be who you want to, be who you are
Everyone's a hero, everyone's a star

When you wanna give up, and your hearts about to break
Remember that you're perfect, God makes no mistakes

Welcome to wherever you are
This is your life, you made it this far
Welcome, you gotta believe
That right here right now, you're exactly where you're supposed to be
Welcome, to wherever you are
 

Tuesday, May 21, 2013

Bounce

If I played this EVERY time it has applied, I'd play it damn near every day. I don't even want to say what I'm really thinking, but I should have known this would happen, right? When will the cycle end?
 
 

"Bounce"
I been knocked down so many times
Counted out 6, 7, 8, 9
Written off like some bad deal
If you're breathing you know how it feels
Call it karma, call it luck
Me, I just don't give a


Bounce, Bounce Nothing's gonna keep me down
Bounce, Bounce Stand up, shout it out
Bounce, Bounce I play hard, I play to win
Count me out, count me in
I'll be bouncing back again

This ain't no game; I play it hard
Kicked around, cut, stitched and scarred
I'll take the hit but not the fall
I know no fear, still standing tall
You can call it karma, call it luck
Me, I just don't give a


Bounce, Bounce Nothing's gonna keep me down
Bounce, Bounce Stand up, shout it out
Bounce, Bounce I play hard, I play to win
Count me out, count me in
I'll be bouncing back again

Bounce!
 
Bring it on, I like it rough
In your face, I call your bluff
It ain't karma, it ain't luck
Me, I just don't give a


Bounce, Bounce Nothing's gonna keep me down
Bounce, Bounce Stand up, shout it out
Bounce, Bounce I play hard, I play to win
Count me out, count me in
I'll be bouncing back again

Bounce, Bounce
Nothing's gonna keep me down
Bounce, Bounce Stand up, shout it out
Bounce, Bounce I play hard, I play to win
Count me out, count me in
I'll be bouncing back again

Monday, May 20, 2013

It's A Kind of Magic

Yep. I've done this one before, but having met and been photographed with Adrian Paul yesterday, it had to be my song today.
 
 

"A Kind Of Magic"
It's a kind of magic,
It's a kind of magic,
A kind of magic,
One dream, one soul, one prize,
One goal, one golden glance of what should be,
It's a kind of magic,
One shaft of light that shows the way,
No mortal man can win this day,
It's a mind of magic,
The bell that rings inside your mind,
It's a challenging the doors of time,
It's a kind of magic,
The waiting seems eternity,
The day will dawn of sanity,
It's a kind of magic,
There can be only one,
This rage that lasts a thousand years
Will soon be gone,
This flame that burns inside of me,
I'm hearing secret harmonies
It's a kind of magic,
The bell that rings inside your mind,
Is challenging the doors of time,
It's a kind of magic,
It's a kind of magic,
This rage that lasts a thousand years,
Will soon be will soon be,
Will soon be gone,
This is a kind of magic,
There can only be one,
This life that lasts a thousand years,
Will soon be gone,
Magic - it's a kind of magic,
It's a kind of magic,
Magic, magic, magic, magic,
It's magic,
It's a kind of magic.

Sunday, May 19, 2013

Amazing Day

Here are some photos from our amazing day at Motor City Comic Con 2013 in Novi, Michigan.

Some of the stars were set up to do professional photo ops. Yes, we had our pic taken with Adrian Paul and received this awesome 8x10 photo. Then, of course, we took it back over to his booth for him to sign it.

Our first stop of the day, though, was to see Cary Elwes. He was awesome. Both of the girls got hugs from him.

 Katana with a stormtrooper.

 Megan with Aaron Ashmore.

 Katana with Batman and Bane.

 Nicholas Brendon is a favorite from Buffy the Vampire Slayer. But I also love him as the nerdy sometimes love-interest of Penelope Garcia on Criminal Minds.

 Steve was calm, cool and collected about meeting Edward James Olmos. He even indicated that he didn't need to get a photo with him...until we met him. this was Steve's fan moment. He really loved the Battlestar Gallactica series and admires Edward James Olmos' skills.

 Even the Muppets showed up!

 Yes, the girls were geeked to get a pic with Darth Vader.

 This was a pretty cool moment because I've had a Twitter conversation with Robert Duncan McNeill. We weren't in agreement on the political discussion we were having, but it was a discussion. Not an argument. Not a claws out, distressed conversation. A nice, respectful discussion.

Katana with Aaron Ashmore.

Not only did we have these photo ops with so many of the stars we've grown to love over the years, every one of them was amazingly nice. One of the things I've always loved about Creation Entertainment conventions (and I can now add Comic Con to this statement) is the stars are friendly and humble, the fans are respectful and courteous. We ran across Adrian Paul and Cary Elwes walking around the vendor tables. They weren't being mobbed by the fans, though I couldn't help but stare at Adrian until he walked away from where we were. Of course, when we first met Adrian, I told him about naming Katana after his sword. I also told him about my three (yes, three) Highlander leather jackets and the disagreement I had with Todd and Zeke about who was going to die in Endgame. After we walked to the van, I took a photo of the four of us with Adrian and tweeted it plus a thank you to Adrian for making my day.  When we got home, I was checking my Twitter feed and found this pic he tweeted:

He double-triple-quadruple made my day!! This is a pic that was taken when we first stopped at his booth (so into telling him my stories that I didn't notice his assistant take this pic). When we went back to have him sign the pic that we're all in, I asked him if I could have a hug. And he said yes! I have never felt like such a fan girl as I did around him. I was very concerned that my heart was going to beat out of my chest when he hugged me. 

What an amazing day!

Saturday, May 18, 2013

Bring on the Rain

A lot of people get sad or depressed when it rains. I find it very cleansing and refreshing.
 
 
 
"Bring On The Rain"
(feat. Tim McGraw)

 
Another day has almost come and gone
Can't imagine what else could go wrong
Sometimes I'd like to hide away somewhere and lock the door
A single battle lost but not the war ('cause)

Tomorrow's another day
And I'm thirsty anyway
So bring on the rain

It's almost like the hard times circle 'round
A couple drops and they all start coming down
Yeah, I might feel defeated,
And I might hang my head
I might be barely breathing - but I'm not dead, no ('cause)

Tomorrow's another day
And I'm thirsty anyway
So bring on the rain

I'm not gonna let it get me down
I'm not gonna cry
And I'm not gonna lose any sleep tonight ('cause)

Tomorrow's another day
And I am not afraid
So bring on the rain

Tomorrow's another day
And I'm thirsty anyway
So bring on the rain

Bring on the rain; bring on the rain

Bring on the rain

Bring on, bring on, the rain




Friday, May 17, 2013

Don't Forget Me (When I'm Gone)

The last several years feel like a life-review for me. I have "run into" and "reconnected" with many people that I had broken ties with. People that I had "wronged" in the past or those that "wronged" me have been creeping back into my life. For the record, I think there are about 3 left that I anticipate hearing from. Soon. Seriously.
It has been an extremely emotional time for me.
It has also been an extremely healing time for me.
And a love-filled time for me.
I have had an especially difficult year so far. I have been challenged emotionally and spiritually. I have been crushed by negativity and almost defeated. I have almost given up on many occasions.
I have also been blessed with unexpected, out-of-the-blue comments and compliments from friends at the least expecting moments. Those moments helped pull me through because I didn't solicit them. Simple statements were made. It was a lot like being slapped in the face with a ray of sunshine on an otherwise dreary day. For that, I am thankful. Love and Light.
 
The point of this song? I haven't forgotten any love. I never will.
When the pain heals, all that's left is love.
 
 
 
 
"Don't Forget Me (When I'm Gone)"
 
You take my breath away, oh-oh-oh-oh
Love thinks it's here to stay, oh-oh-oh-oh
There's still so much for me to do
And I can't stop loving you
Oh, can this be true

If you could see what I have seen, oh-oh-oh-oh
Broken hearts and broken dreams, oh-oh-oh-oh
Then I wake up and you're not there
Pain finds me everywhere
Oh, but you don't care

Don't forget me when I'm gone
My heart would break
I have loved you for so long
It's all I can take

You, you take my breath away, oh-oh-oh-oh
Love thinks it's here to stay, oh-oh-oh-oh
Still so much for me to do
And I can't stop loving you
Oh, can this be true

Don't forget me when I'm gone
My heart would break
I have loved you for so long
It's all I can take

Then I wake up and you're not there
Pain finds me everywhere
Oh, but you don't care

Don't forget me when I'm gone
For heaven's sake
I have loved you for so long
Is loving wrong
So don't forget me when I'm gone
My heart would break
I have loved you for so long
Is loving wrong

Thursday, May 16, 2013

When the Lights Go Down

I believe in a Universal plan.
I believe in a Higher Power.
I believe I will get it right this time.
I believe that love is all that really matters.
 
 
 
 

"When The Lights Go Down"
When the lights go down
He'll be fillin' a pan with a broom in his hand
In some dive across town
He'll be wipin' the bar, and moppin' the floor
Countin' his tips, and lockin' the doors
Wrestling the Devil that tells him to pour another round
When the lights go down
She'll be callin' her friends from her Mercedes Benz
But it's too late now
They were there for the fame, the flash, and the thrill
For the drop of the name, the parties, the pills
As another star falls from the Hollywood Hills without a sound

When the lights go down and there's nothing left to be
When the lights go down and truth is all you see
When you feel that hole inside your soul
And wonder what you're made of
Well we all find out
When the lights go down

When the lights go down
At the end of the day when this game that I play
Has gone another round
As I lay there alone on this big empty bed
With nothing but thoughts of you in my head
I think of the things that I wish I had said
When you were still around

When the lights go down and there's nothing left to be
When the lights go down and the truth is all you see
And I wonder if all my life's about the sum
Of all my fears and all my doubts
When the lights go down

When the lights go down and there's nothing left to be
When the lights go down and truth is all you see
When you feel that hole inside your soul
And wonder what you're made of
Well we all find out
When the lights go down

Wednesday, May 15, 2013

Never Say Goodbye

Some things just don't last.
I can't get this song out of my head today.
 
 
 
 
 

"Never Say Goodbye"
As I sit in this smokey room
The night about to end
I pass my time with strangers
But this bottle's my only friend

Remember when we used to park
On Butler Street out in the dark
Remember when we lost the keys
And you lost more than that in my backseat baby

Remember how we used to talk
About busting out - we'd break their hearts
Together - forever

Never say goodbye, never say goodbye
You and me and my old friends
Hoping it would never end
Say goodbye, never say goodbye
Holdin' on - we got to try
Holdin' on to never say goodbye

Remember days of skipping school
Racing cars and being cool
With a six pack and the radio
We didn't need no place to go

Remember at the prom that night
You and me we had a fight
But the band they played our favorite song
And I held you in my arms so strong

We danced so close
We danced so slow
And I swore I'd never let you go
Together - forever

Never say goodbye, never say goodbye
You and me and my old friends
Hoping it would never end
Say goodbye, never say goodbye
Holdin' on - we got to try
Holdin' on to never say goodbye

I guess you'd say we used to talk
About busting out
We'd break their hearts
Together - forever

Never say goodbye, never say goodbye
You and me and my old friends
Hoping it would never end
Say goodbye, never say goodbye
Holdin' on - we got to try
Holdin' on to never say goodbye
yeah yeah

Tuesday, May 14, 2013

Stronger

I was having such an amazing high from yesterday: Michael J. Fox will have a new show in the fall that will actually USE his Parkinson's as part of the story line; I found out that Comic Con will be in Novi this weekend and we bought tickets so I'll get to meet Adrian Paul after 20 years of loving him; I won tickets to see the new Star Trek movie in theaters this weekend; Katana and some classmates performed a two hour showcase of improv, skits and song; Vicky and her family will be joining us for Comic Con this weekend; I also managed a chakra clearing meditation without a recorded guide.
I don't understand why anyone who claims to care for me would want to blemish that happiness.
 
 

"Stronger"

This is the window to my heart
I just want you to be free
There ain't no freedom where we are
Ain't no wishes in these stars
Ain't no reasons to believe
But don't worry baby
Don't you worry
Maybe this is what we need
A little bruise and a little bleeding
Some space that we can breathe in
Some silence in between

So cry for me baby
And I'll cry for you
And we'll both break down and we'll both break through
We'll find our way we'll face the truth
We both will be stronger
And we'll lie down in our loneliness
Wake up with our sad regrets
Even know we don't know it yet
We both will be stronger
We both will be stronger

I can't believe you're really gone now
But I know it's for the best
And I know that we weren't right
But I still reach for you each night
And man that hurts like hell

So cry for me baby
And I'll cry for you
And we'll both break down and we'll both break through
We'll find our way you will face the truth
We both will be stronger
And we'll lie down in our loneliness
Wake up with our sad regrets
Even know we don't know it yet
We both will be stronger
We both will be stronger
So baby

So cry for me baby
And I'll cry for you
And we'll both break down and we'll both break through
We'll find our way you will face the truth
We both will be stronger
And we'll lie down in our loneliness
Wake up with our sad regrets
Even know we don't know it yet
We both will be stronger
We both will be stronger

This is the window to my heart
I just want us to be free
Baby I'm sorry for the way things are
Goodbye is always hard
And we both will be stronger

Monday, May 13, 2013

Starting Over Again

2013 will be a year of great change.
I believe that staying in an unhealthy relationship can go a long way to creating physical health problems. Depression. Fatigue. Weight problems (too much and too little).
I remember being judged during both of my divorces: what about the kids, they asked.
I got it right. Staying in a bad or unloving marriage teaches our children that they have to suffer through that instead of striving to be happy. That doesn't mean you give up easy. It just means you have to know when it's time to walk away.
 
 

"Starting Over Again"
Mama moved out
Daddy sold the house
They split up the money
And went on their way

And all the king's horses
and all the kings men
Couldn't put mama and daddy back together again

Starting over again
Where should they begin
'Cause they've never been out on their own
Starting over again
Where do you begin
When your dreams are all shattered
and the kids are all grown
And the whole word cries

He got an apartment
She moved in with her sisters
He's schemin' big deals with one of his friends
While she sits at home
Sortin' out pieces
Of left over memories from thirty odd years

Starting over again
Where do you begin
When you've never been out on your own
Starting over again
Never any end

What will the neighbors say
They're talkin' talk it's small town news
They're facing fifty years old wrecking up a happy home
And this far down the road
You find yourself alone
Two fools
Starting over again
Where do you begin
When you've never been out on your own
Starting over again
Never any end
When your dreams are all shattered
And the kids are all grown
And the whole world cries

And all the kings horses
And all the kings men
Couldn't put mama and daddy back together again

Sunday, May 12, 2013

In My Daughter's Eyes

This is for my mom, my aunts, my grandmothers, my sisters, and my girlfriends.
Wishing all the mothers in the world a wonderful day focused on you...relaxing, in any way you see fit.



"In My Daughter's Eyes"

In my daughter's eyes I am a hero
I am strong and wise and I know no fear
But the truth is plain to see
She was sent to rescue me
I see who I wanna be
In my daughter's eyes

In my daughter's eyes everyone is equal
Darkness turns to light and the
world is at peace
This miracle God gave to me gives me
strength when I am weak
I find reason to believe 
In my daughter's eyes

And when she wraps her hand
around my finger
Oh it puts a smile in my heart
Everything becomes a little clearer
I realize what life is all about

It's hangin' on when your heart
has had enough
It's giving more when you feel like giving up
I've seen the light
It's in my daugter's eyes

In my daughter's eyes I can see the future
A reflection of who I am and what will be
Though she'll grow and someday leave
Maybe raise a family
When I'm gone I hope you see how happy
she made me
For I'll be there
In my daughter's eyes

Saturday, May 11, 2013

I Want To Live

Josh Gracin is Westland, Michigan born and bred. I hear him sing and it's sometimes hard for me to match the voice with the baby-face. This song is from his first album. It's another pick-me-up song that reminds me to live.
 
 

"I Want To Live"
Sometimes I feel like I need
To shake myself
To wake myself
I feel like I'm just sleepwalkin'
Through my life
It's like I'm swimming in
An ocean of emotion
But still somehow slowly
Going numb inside
I don't like who I'm becomin'
I know I've gotta do somethin'
Before my life passes right by

I want to cry like the rain
Cry like the rain
Shine like sun on a beautiful mornin'
Sing to the heavens like the church bells ringin'
Fight with the devil and go down swingin'
Fly like a bird, roll like a stone
Love like I ain't afraid to be alone
Take everything that this world has to give
I want to live

Sometimes I wonder
Why I work so hard to guard my heart
Till I hardly feel anything at all
I've spent my whole life building up this ivory tower
And now that I'm in it, I keep wishing it would fall
So I could feel the ground beneath me
Really taste the air I'm breathin'
And know that I'm alive

I want to cry like the rain
Cry like the rain
Shine like sun on a beautiful mornin'
Sing to the heavens like the church bells ringin'
Fight with the devil and go down swingin'
Fly like a bird, roll like a stone
Love like I ain't afraid to be alone
Take everything that this world has to give
I want to live

Something deep inside
Keeps saying
Life is like a vapor
Its gone in just a twinklin' of an eye

I want to cry like the rain
Cry like the rain
Shine like sun on a beautiful mornin'
Sing to the heavens like the church bells ringin'
Fight with the devil and go down swingin'
Fly like a bird, roll like a stone
Love like I ain't afraid to be alone
Take everything that this world has to give
I want to live

I want to take every
Breath I can get
I want to live
Yeah, yeah

Prayer for Love

We're going to share a beautiful dream together--a dream that you will love to have all of the time. In this dream you are in the middle of a beautiful, warm sunny day. You hear the birds, the wind, and a little river. You walk toward the river. At the edge of the river is an old man in meditation, and you see that out of his head comes a beautiful light of different colors. You try not to bother him, but he notices your presence and opens is eyes. He has the kind of eyes that are full of love and a big smile. You ask him how he is able to radiate all that beautiful light. You ask him if he can teach you to do what he is doing. He replies that many, many, years ago he asked the same question of his teacher.

The old man begins to tell you a story: "My teacher opened his chest and took out his heart, and he took a beautiful flame from his heart. Then he opened my chest, opened my heart, and he put that little flame inside it. He put my heart back in my chest, and as soon as my heart was inside me, I felt intense love, because the flame he put in my heart was his own love.

"That flame grew in my heart ad became a big, big fire--a fire that doesn't burn, but purifies everything that it touches. And that fire touched each one of the cells of my body, and the cells of my body loved me back. I became one with my body, but my love grew even more. That fire touched every emotion of my mind, and all the emotions transformed into a strong and intense love. And I loved myself, completely and unconditionally.

"But the fire kept burning and I had the need to share my love. I decided to put a little piece of my love in every tree, and the trees loved me back, and I became one with the trees, but my love did not stop, it grew more. I put a piece of love in every flower, in the grass, in the earth and they loved me back, and we became one. And my love grew more and more to love every animal in the world. They responded to my love and they loved me back, and we became one. But my love kept growing and growing.

"I put a piece of my love in every crystal, in every stone in the ground, in the dirt, in the metals, and they loved me back, and I became one with the earth. And then I decided to put my love in the water, in the oceans, in the rivers, in the rain, in the snow. And they loved me back and we became one. And still my love grew more and more. I decided to give my love to the air, to the wind. I felt a strong communion with the earth, with the wind, with the oceans, with nature, and my love grew and grew.

"I turned my head to the sky, to the sun, to the stars, and put a little piece of my love in every start, in the moon, in the sun, and they loved me back. And I became one with the moon and the sun and the stars, and my love kept growing and growing. And I put a little piece of my love in every human, and I became one with the whole of humanity. Wherever I go, whomever I meet, I see myself in their eyes, because I am a part of everything, because I love."

And then the old man opens his own chest, takes out his heart with that beautiful flame inside, and he puts that flame in your heart. And now that love is growing inside of you. Now you are one with the wind, with the water, with the stars, with all of nature, with all animals, and with all humans. You feel the heat and the light emanating from the flame in your heart. Out of your head shines a beautiful light of different colors. You are radiant with the glow of love and you pray:

Thank you, Creator of the Universe, for the gift of life you have given me. Thank you for giving me everything that I have ever truly needed. Thank you for the opportunity to experience this beautiful body and this wonderful mind. Thank you for living inside me with all your love, with your pure and boundless spirit, with your warm and radiant light.

Thank you for using my words, for using my eyes, for using my heart to share your love wherever I go. I love you just the way you are, and because I am your creation, I love myself just the way I am. Help me to keep the love and the peace in my heart and to make that love a new way of life, that I may live in love the rest of my life. Amen.

Friday, May 10, 2013

The River

It is almost impossible to find an original Garth song on YouTube. And I mean "original" in that HE is the one singing it. I miss new albums from him.
This song has always been a go to song when I need a reminder to keep plugging along. I'm not feeling that way. I'm feeling more along the lines of The Dance but I couldn't find a good video with him actually singing it.
I have struggled a lot this year. I have been thrown into situations that have shaken the foundation upon which I have built me. I have had statements made and actions against me that caused me to feel shame about what I've been through to get to where I am. I have doubted my own sanity. My own worth.
But today, this Blessed New Moon energy with accompanying Solar Eclipse, I'm proclaiming the resurgence of me. You can join me on the river or simply wave when I pass by.
 
 
"The River"
 
You know a dream is like a river
Ever changin' as it flows
And a dreamer's just a vessel
That must follow where it goes
Trying to learn from what's behind you
And never knowing what's in store
Makes each day a constant battle
Just to stay between the shores...

And, I will sail my vessel
'Til the river runs dry
Like a bird upon the wind
These waters are my sky
I'll never reach my destination
If I never try
So I will sail my vessel
'Til the river runs dry

Too many times we stand aside
And let the waters slip away
'Til what we put off 'til tomorrow
Has now become today
So don't you sit upon the shoreline
And say you're satisfied
Choose to chance the rapids
And dare to dance the tide...

Yes, I will sail my vessel
'Til the river runs dry
Like a bird upon the wind
These waters are my sky
I'll never reach my destination
If I never try
So I will sail my vessel
'Til the river runs dry

There's bound to be rough waters
And I know I'll take some falls
But with the good Lord as my captain
I can make it through them all...

Yes, I will sail my vessel
'Til the river runs dry
Like a bird upon the wind
These waters are my sky
I'll never reach my destination
If I never try
So I will sail my vessel
'Til the river runs dry

Yes, I will sail my vessel
'Til the river runs dry
'Til the river runs dry

Thursday, May 9, 2013

Dancing on the Ceiling

It's recycle day at ProTech Computers. It's a New Moon. It's a Solar Eclipse. And I am looking forward to getting my garden started this weekend!!
 
 

"Dancing On The Ceiling"
What is happening here?
Something is going on
That's not quite clear
Somebody turn on the light
We're gonna have a party
It's starting tonight

Oh, what a feeling!
When we're dancing on the ceiling
The room is hot...that's good
Some of my friends came
By from the neighbourhood
People were starting
To climb the walls
Ooh, it looks like everybody
Is having a ball

Everybody starts to lose control
When the music is right
If you see somebody hanging around
Don't get up right
The only thing we wanna do tonight
Is go round and round
And turn upside down
Come on, let's get down

So come on, let's get loose
Don't hold back
Because it ain't no use
Hard to keep your feet on the ground
Because when we like to ball it
We only want to get down
What? you say what?
It's love now...
Just get started
Everybody clap your hands, come on
Everybody have sense...


Wednesday, May 8, 2013

The First Agreement

Be Impeccable with Your Word

I have been focusing on this. I have been consistently practicing personal affirmations and striving to be the change in the world that I want to see. That means, I'm striving more and more to speak with love than with my fears or hurts or angers.  Ever mindful of what I'm sending out.

I have also been utilizing The Faeries' Oracle cards I received from my sister many years ago.  I don't think of specific aspects of my life when I shuffle and draw a card. I look for general ideas about this moment in my life. Last night, I drew: Gloominous Doom. Frightening sounding card, isn't it? One of the first lines in the description of the card was that I should read about the card preceding it because they tend to go hand in hand: The Soul Shrinker.

The Soul Shrinker observes what we say to others, especially the mean, nasty, unnecessary and critical things we say and reflects them back to us. And less than 30 minutes later I was pulled into a discussion that could have turned so easily and quickly into a mean, nasty, blame-filled, accusation-fest.  Sometimes, you just have to turn around and walk the other way.

My path is mine. My life has been spent claiming my path and walking it with confidence. I could have let my hurt and anger take control. I could have spewed nasty, non-productive, negativity on this person. Being impeccable with my word and wanting to be a part of the change rather than the status quo had me pressing the delete button on the response I had typed.

Gloominous Doom, by the way, speaks to our self-pity and self-destructive behaviors. Gloominous Doom helps us explore those thoughts and behaviors that perpetuate our personal pity parties. Gloominous Doom wants us to take responsibility for ourselves. I love this sentence: The sorrier we feel for ourselves, the worse our life becomes.

I spent about three months of this year in (what I would call) extremely close contact with Gloominous Doom. I am blessed enough that I have the strength and the fortitude to have pulled myself out of it.

I'm back. I'm continually working on making myself even better. Continuing to strive beyond the (current) norm.

Love and Light.

What the World Needs

Love is the answer, regardless of the question.
 
 

"What The World Needs"
I look around at all the faces and I see
All the lonely people looking back at me
Rich, poor don't matter we're all the same
Everybody's hungry in a different way
We're clawin' and climbin' and kickin' and screamin' and fightin' but really

What the world needs now is love
Love and only love
A little help from up above
Faith to make a better day
Let's come together
Lay our differences down
Spread it all around
That's what the world needs now

(La, la, la, la, la)

Sometimes all it takes is just a smile
To change somebody's weather
Chase the clouds out of their sky
Sometimes you gotta give and not receive
Sometimes you gotta live what you believe
Open your arms cause that's where it starts
Right here with you and with me

What the world needs now is love
Love and only love
A little help from up above
Faith to make a better day
Let's come together
Lay our differences down
Spread it all around
That's what the world needs now

Nobody likes the cold
We all need someone to hold
No one wants to be alone
What the world needs now is love
Love and only love
A little help from up above
Faith to make a better day
Let's come together
Lay our differences down
Spread it all around
That's what the world needs now
What the world needs now is love
Love and only love
A little help from up above
Faith to make a better day
Let's come together
Lay our differences down
Spread it all around
That's what the world needs now
What the world needs now is love
Love and only love
A little help from up above
Faith to make a better day
Let's come together
Lay our differences down
Spread it all around
That's what the world needs now
Let's come together, lay our prejudices down...
(La, la, la, la, la)

Tuesday, May 7, 2013

Smile

Bright, sunny, beautiful days always put me in a mood.
 

"Smile"
You're better than the best
I'm lucky just to linger in your light
Cooler than the flip-side of my pillow (that's right)
Completely unaware
Nothing can compare to where you send me
Let's me know that it's okay (yea, it's okay)
And the moments when my good times start to fade

[Chorus:]
You make me smile like the sun, fall outta bed
Sing like a bird,
Dizzy in my head
Spin like a record,
Crazy on a Sunday night
You make me dance like fool,
Forget how to breathe
Shine like gold,
Buzz like a bee
Just the thought of you can drive me wild
Oh, you make me smile

Even when you're gone
Somehow you come along just like a flower pokin through the sidewalk crack
And just like that
You steal away the rain
And just like that

You make me smile like the sun, fall outta bed
Sing like a bird,
Dizzy in my head
Spin like a record,
Crazy on a Sunday night
You make me dance like fool,
Forget how to breathe
Shine like gold,
Buzz like a bee
Just the thought of you can drive me wild
Oh, you make me smile

 Don't know how I lived without you
'Cuz everytime that I get around you
I see the best of me inside your eyes
You make me smile
You make me dance like fool, Forget how to breathe
Shine like gold, Buzz like a bee
Just the thought of you can drive me wild
Oh, you make me smile

You make me smile like the sun, fall outta bed
Sing like a bird,
Dizzy in my head
Spin like a record,
Crazy on a Sunday night
You make me dance like fool,
Forget how to breathe
Shine like gold,
Buzz like a bee
Just the thought of you can drive me wild
Oh, you make me smile

 (Oh, you make me smile)
Oh you make me smille
(Oh, you make me smile)
Oh you make me smile

Prayer for Freedom


Today, Creator of the Universe, we ask that you come to us and share with us a strong communion of love. We know that your real name is Love, that to have a communion with you means to share the same vibration, the same frequency that you are, because you are the only thing that exists in the universe.

Today, help us to be like you are, to love life, to be life, to be love. Help us to love the way you love, with no conditions, no expectations, no obligations, without any judgment. Help us to love and accept ourselves without any judgment, because when we judge ourselves, we find ourselves guilty and we need to be punished.

Help us to love everything you create unconditionally, especially other human beings, especially those who live around us--all our relatives and people whom we try so hard to love. Because when we reject them, we reject ourselves, and when we reject ourselves, we reject You.

Help us to love others just the way they are with no conditions. Help us to accept them the way they are, without judgment, because if we judge them, we find them guilty, we blame them, and we have the need to punish them.

Today, clean our hearts of any emotional poison that we have, free our minds from any judgment so that we can live in complete peace and complete love.

Today is a very special day. Today we open our hearts to love again so that we can tell each other "I love you," without any fear, and really mean it. Today, we offer ourselves to you. Come to us, use our voices, use our eyes, use our hands, and use our hearts to share ourselves in a communion of love with everyone. Today, Creator, help us to be just like you are. Thank you for everything we receive this day, especially for the freedom to be who we really are. Amen.

Monday, May 6, 2013

The Four Agreements

I recently read The Four Agreements by don Miguel Ruiz and am striving to live the agreements more mindfully now. You'll probably read more here as I continue to work on creating these realities in my life.

The First Agreement: Be Impeccable With Your Word

The Second Agreement: Don't Take Anything Personally

The Third Agreement: Don't Make Assumptions

The Fourth Agreement: Always Do Your Best

Saturday, May 4, 2013

Show Me The Way

I am in a comtemplative mood. This song meant much to me then.
It still does...with so many more experiences to support it.




"Show Me The Way"

Every night I say a prayer in the hope that there's a heaven
And every day I'm more confused as the saints turn into sinners
All the heroes and legends I knew as a child have fallen to idols of clay
And I feel this empty place inside so afraid that I've lost my faith

Show me the way, show me the way
Take me tonight to the river
And wash my illusions away
Show me the way

And as I slowly drift to sleep, for a moment dreams are sacred
I close my eyes and know there's peace in a world so filled with hatred
That I wake up each morning and turn on the news to find we've so far to go
And I keep on hoping for a sign, so afraid that I just won't know

Show me the way, Show me the way
Take me tonight to the mountain
And wash my confusion away

And if I feel light, should I believe
Tell me how will I know

Show me the way, show me the way
Take me tonight to the river
And wash my illusions away
Show me the way, show me the way
Give me the strength and the courage
To believe that I'll get there someday
Show me the way

Every night I say a prayer
In the hope that there's a heaven...

Friday, May 3, 2013

Bringing Down the Giant

Jackson has this little bar/club/venue called The Foundry. Last night, they had a show that included a total of six bands. My brother-in-law's band, Cyk Cylinder, performed. So did Saving Abel. It was supposed to be an all-acoustic show. Some bands didn't get that memo. Yep, my ears were ringing at the end of the night. And really? How can you complain about being less than 5 feet from the stage?
 
I had to be a responsible adult, though, and left just after the set finished. It's a shame because Saving Abel stuck around and mingled. My sister had her picture taken with the guitarist.
 
 
 

"Bringing Down The Giant"
Bringing down the giant.

Oh. I hit the wall I got back up and dusted off.
I’m past the pain and I’m taking back all that I lost,
I’m going to kick you off the throne hang your crown up on the wall,
Yeah your glory days are gone gone gone.
Yeah I’m bringing down the giant
I won’t sit here and be silent.

When your world comes crashing down I’ll remind you
I’m the one who’s laughing loud in your face
Yeah yeah your karma’s coming back here to find you this could get a little violent
Yeah I’m bringing down bringing down the giant.

Too many lies built up inside you're bound to fall, standing face to face you're not so big after
All take your bow you had your shot looking down while you're on top now your glory days are gone gone gone
Yeah I’m bringing down the giant I won’t sit here and be silent

When your world comes crashing down I’ll remind you
I’m the one who’s laughing loud in your face
Yeah yeah your karma’s coming back here to find you this could get a little violent
Yeah I’m bringing down bringing down the giant. [x2]

I’m the one who’s laughing loud in your face,
Yeah your karma’s coming back here to find you this could get a little violent
Yeah I’m bringing down bringing down the giant.